Physical versus Emotional
I can’t help but feel really hurt about what’s been going on. It’s not like I’ve been a bad person at all, but why do I keep on attracting this assholes to me?
It’s so hard to find someone worth my time, who is willing to see that I am worthy. I’m not asking for much. All I’m asking for it to be respected, not passionately in love with. But I can’t even get that. I’m reduced to a mess when I think about what happened on Friday.
I know that this is a stage of life, but I can’t help but feel upset. Here it is, that he’s the first person I’ve felt kinship with in such a long time, but all he wants from me is sex. I know the right thing to do is walk away from this friendship, but I can’t bring myself to. I can’t stop crying over it because it makes me realise that I am such a weak human being and useless. I’ve always promised myself I’d walk away if it was bad, but I can’t now, and I’m so angry. I just want to find at least one decent guy in college. But I’m graduating and there’s nothing left for me. Is that hard to ask for one decent romantic relationship while in college? Because I don’t think so. Just because I am religious and don’t believe in sex outside of marriage does not make me an awful person.
@1 year ago with 1 note#sex #self-worth #respect #college #hooking up #friendship #religion
